We�ve kept strong through the past four months, and I�m very happy. I didn�t think I could last in a long distance relationship- physically or emotionally. We�re strong, we�re good to go, and I�m unbelievably grateful.
Yet another stage in my life is coming to an end. I�ve lived my adu1t life doing pretty much whatever the he11 I�ve wanted to, and in 16 days, I�m going to be living my life as part of a Serious Couple. Full of compromises and trust and depending on each other. It�s going to be a new and exciting experience, and I can�t wait.
Knowing someone for nearly eight years allows you to see certain elements of their personality, but when people enter into relationships, things change. I trust the fact that his personality isn�t going to annoy me, but the truth of the matter is, is that we�re a very New Couple.
About a week ago, I realized that I don�t think I was ready. I wasn�t ready before I left for West Africa, I wasn�t ready while I was here� and then, sitting on the beach on New Years Eve, I realized that I was finally ready. I am ready for this relationship. I think I thought I was before I left, and during my time here� but the truth is, is that his presence in my life was terrifying. Having him as my boyfriend, and him such a perfect boyfriend, meant that I was all done playing the Relationship Game, the Single Game, the Me Game.
I was done being a single, independent vagabond. It meant settling down. But I also realized that �settling down� doesn�t have to mean �giving up.� It just means �calming down� and finding different things to make you happy.
I�m ready for that. I�m ready for him.
2:44 p.m. - January 05, 2004
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