[Note: I that Limn is passworded. I HATE IT! I'm going to go back and delete the entries about The Boy and make this public again. Not sure when, but it'll happen.]

I have contacted VSO Canada and told them that I am thinking about leaving. Except for about a $100 loss, I'm pretty much free to go. This is very good news. Now I just have to break it to VSO The Gambia and to my bosses. Whatever.

This decision feels right and wrong.

It feels right because I feel like for once in my life I'm compromising something I really like in order to make a relationship work and to make someone else happy.

It feels wrong because I am really happy here and I feel like a bit of a cop-out (even though it's not at ALL the reason behind my decision). It's stunning here, I like some of the people I'm surrounded with, and it's a good place to be.

But the idea of flying to London for THE BEST AIRPORT MEETING IN THE WHOLE WORLD (!!!!!) and then travelling down to the heat of Spain and Portugal at the end of January?

May just be the best idea ever.

... Not to mention the fact that I'm going to be able to have my first bit of physical contact with ANYONE since leaving in August. It will have been nearly five months since kissing someone (except for kisses on the cheeks- all Euro style)... I can't even imagine how GOOD it's going to be to touch him and be touched after such a long time. This is the longest that I've gone without kissing someone since I was 14 years old.

So, that's pretty much my decision. It's a good one, I think. What do you think?